What Am I Missing?

I'm sitting here writing at 11:03 and I'm in a state of crazy.

I'm always in a state of crazy about my life and I get by albeit horribly, but I'm still alive for whatever reason so I breathe a sigh of relief as I close my eyes every night.  I rarely manage to count my blessings and I just am thankful that I've made it through another day and am alive for my kids.

Dramatic, yes!  Truth, hell yes!!!!

M scared the beejeebers out of me tonight.  I was finishing up watching The Haven facing the T.V. and my front porch when I saw a man walk up with a kid in his arms.  I wasn't expecting anyone as the boys were supposed to be camping so I freaked.

M and I got tense with each other last night over A's stool holding and constipation.  Any progress we'd made the last couple of months has totally gone bye-bye over the past month and a half.  We're all so frustrated and I'm just basically sad about his condition.  I'm worried about Alex.  I got totally freaked out last night after reading an article about a 16 year old who still deals with his condition!  I want to be more aggressive with the laxative/softener therapy as the pediatrician suggested.  Pardon the pun, but M is poopooing this.  His idea is to ask A if he's pooped, let him go for days, give him an enema, and then fuss at him while he sits on the toliet for the rest of the night.

Z has his own set of issues.

The dog is still sick.

Horrible selfish me was looking forward to the boys being away with the Boys Scouts camping.  It was going to be S and me until Sunday because C is headed off to her trip in New Orleans.

They left at 5, late, to drive up to the camp site.  They were supposed to meet the rest of their group up at that site.

I guess they drove up there and couldn't find anyone.  And, the site is apparently closed.

Ahem, ..........

So, with two very disappointed boys he drove back.  He was the guy on my porch.

He said he didn't have cell service to try to contact anyone.

ooooookay.....

Who the hell planned this thing?  Are the rest of the group camping as we speak and M was the only one who couldn't find the group?  No one called him as far as he can tell.  It was too late for him to call tonight.  They had a meeting on Tuesday and supposedly everything was set.  He got an email saying the reservation was confirmed and there was a link to a map.

He's going to see if he can get in touch with someone tomorrow.

The good thing?  (I can be an optimist....)  I won't have to drive C to the airport tomorrow morning.  I'm going to get him to do it since he's home now.