Project Monkey: Aunt Flo

Euphemistically, Aunt Flo is visiting this week.

Payday is also today.

I am recognizing....(admitting, but that's not really the correct word) that I feel a spike in my level of anxiety during this time.

I will be trying to "keep it together" this week.

Let me also say, that I love my two bestest blog friends to pieces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I never express enough my appreciation for your support even with all my stupid drama.)

BUT, and you knew this was coming................................

I can't seem to give away my friendship except to you two.  (thank you for entering!!!!!--how embarrassing is this?!)

I linked the Twi blog to Quilter's Gallery and Patchwork Times Design Wall Monday and have had over 100, probably close to 200, visitors in two weeks and not one comment!  I also linked the giveaway to HGTV's quilting forum.

I'm not feeling the love as they say.

Is it just me?  I find it hard not to have a complex.

I almost always leave a comment when I visit somewhere.  I feel like a total idiot.

Eclipse, the Review....not yet

It's 2:45 and I'm blogging about Eclipse.  Please tell me you're not surprised.

Yes, I went to a midnight showing with my friend Dawn.

We had planned to go to Chilis before the movie to hang out around 8:30 and then head next door to the movie around 10.  I'm glad Dawn is so smart.  She suggested we take a drive by the theater first to assess the situation.  I'm glad she's so smart because sure enough the line had already started and it was already snaking around the theater.  Darn!

We were hoping that 10 might be early enough--we weren't going to sit in the front section like we were forced to do for New Moon when we didn't have a clue.

The rumor was a couple people started lining up at 2, but more people showed at 4 and after.

So, no Chilis.  We ended up sitting on the sidewalk for more than two hours.  We got into the theater about 11:00.  Dawn got to hear everything, and I mean everything, that has been going on in my life since I last talked her ear off at soccer in the spring.  Hey, I couldn't just sit there quietly--it would have been torture!

We got good seats.

Dawn sprung for popcorn and a drinks for us.

I'm not ready to write about the movie and my thoughts yet.  It was good enough....

I will say that I laughed to myself at my anxiousness to see Victoria because I just finished her darned block and I had so much trouble with it.

Yeah, I'm Twilight crazy and proud of it!

Really done....??????

I couldn't live with that nose.

I don't like this one much either.

The sewing is done.  It is what it is....  I may take the face parts off and resew.  I don't like the invisible thread. 

I also monkeyed with the eyes with Paint.  I may try this with a white pen.  I think she would look less like a zombie.  LOL

Wimpy Finish

I still have to do thread work.

I wish I didn't have to do the face.  I did my best.  Oh, well!

Brace Yourself

A piece of news I forgot to share yesterday, and I don't know HOW I forgot about it, is that Z is getting braces on 7/1.

We were trying to wait until next spring, but his teeth wouldn't cooperate.  His canine tooth on the left side is coming in goofy and one of his bicuspids on that side is totally wonky and rotated.

I took him last week for an emergency orthodontic consultation.  The office had been monitoring his case and is the same one we were so happy with that did C's treatment.  The doc was like get him into braces!  The front office will work with you--I had explained our unease about M's job and that we hadn't planned enough to put money into the reimbursement account.  $5100 after the family discount!  M made arrangements so we'll make a good enough down payment and then it's $100/month for .......

The office took all new photos to update his case.  I got to see orange plaque all over his teeth in HD--he tells me he brushes, but we know better.  He also still has the thumbsucking issue that he has the torturous appliance in his mouth--truly, as it actually has spikes.  It might have to come out.

I'm hoping we're not throwing good money after bad.  We've committed to the treatment and now HE has to.

C already gave him the rundown.  They know if you don't brush even if it's just one day.  They know when you've eaten something on the banned list.  DON'T break a bracket unless you want to get yelled at.....

Holding Back

Maybe I've got too much going on that I'm too overwhelmed to write about it? Maybe I've had a change of heart and don't feel like sharing the bad, the worse, and the uglier? Maybe I'm getting lazy?

I guess it doesn't really matter.

I'm just going to play a quick game of catch-up....

Ginger, one of our dogs and M's baby, has been diagnosed with diabetes. (This is the dog that I've had evil thoughts about...the one that jumps the fence, gets into the trash, hogs the couch, etc.) She'd seen a dramatic weight loss in the past two months. M finally took her to the vet on Thursday and received the diagnosis. It's two insulin shots a day for the rest of her life. Poor baby.

M turned 45 today. He grilled steaks for us and we had his favorite ice cream cake. I will probably get him another one. I only had enough money to get him a cake from the grocery store instead of Baskin Robbins. I will get him his favorite pralines and cream cake next weekend. The kids all made him cards, including S's fabric card that we had issues about last night. I think I'm going to get him a gift card somewhere so he can buy a baseball mitt. The boys are always after him to play catch, but he doesn't have a mitt.

S is learing to sew with me as her instructor. Gulp! She was having so much trouble sewing a straight seam. I looked for tips today. She's using an old machine, but I think I'm going to bring up my other one because I lost the front container thingy of the sewing machine bed and it's an issue. She used my machine today, but she wants her "own" machine and I don't want to share either. The tip that is working is taping a drinking straw as a seam guide that is butted up the edge of the foot. It seems to be working. She started her quilt tonight.

Z wants to make a quilt, too. At this rate, I'll never have a chance to sew myself. hahahahahaha

I'm still working on the Eclipse Quilt. It would have been nice to finish it before the movie opened, but I'm not getting much help and I'm so fussy about the blocks I'm making. They have to be just right. I'm almost done with Victoria thank goodness. I still don't know how I'm going to complete her face. Our plans fell through to give it away, so it may be looking for another good home upon completion.

(She needs a face.  I don't know if I really want to continue with the "art" quilt/photo adaptation method I've been using for her face.  I'm wondering if I can paint it somehow?  Suggestions?)

This is the photo I used:

C's curfew punishment is finished today. She already has a plans to attend a birthday party tomorrow. She was pretty well behaved while being grounded. I'm hoping she breaks loose in a good way.

S is enjoying her summer school. She was afraid to go, but she can't wait to go. She only has a week left, though. She's being bribed with candy to learn her times tables. Whatever! My mom has been helping out by taking her and picking her up. I'm sorting out my feelings about her sitting in her car out in front of my house until I get home?! (11 a.m. to 3:00 or 4:00) She doesn't even try to make it into my house anymore.

Creative Giving

The Victoria block is kicking my ass. I thought I was on my way, but the *&%# block is giving me fits. I'm taking a break to gain some perspective.

I'd like to make this dress. S is also wanting to learn how to sew. We had some creative differences with each other last night. Surpisingly HERS not mine. I was very well behaved for once. I didn't fuss about her picking a saved fabric, cringe over fabric choices, or design. I only helped her cut things out. Well, she started fussing on her own. I CAN'T WIN!!!!!!!!!!!

I think she could make this little dress on with a little bit of help, but I don't know if I should even suggest it?!

Absent

I've not felt like blogging at all lately.

I've been keeping up the Twilight Quilters blog, but that's about it. There's not much to that. Find the correct passage in the book and write about how I made the block.

Who know what will happen from here on out?

Bella's Bracelet

I gave up on the jump rings when the ones that I bought today were closed and not able to be opened.  I used silver thread instead.

Happy for Monday

Rarely am  I ever happy for the weekend to end, but put last weekend in the record books because I'm happy it's Monday!

Mondays aren't the problem.  I don't usually mind Mondays overall.  I'm usually busy at work so the day goes by fast.  Even when the kids are in school they aren't so bad because of their late start.

I'm not unhappy with what I got done.  I would have liked to have been able to get one more block finished, but I didn't start another one because of indecision and not because I didn't have patterns ready to go.  I maintain that a shopping trip is in order for me to get inspired.

The reason I was eager for my weekend to end was because I washed M's wallet on Saturday.  Oops!!!  I am so bad about checking pockets.  (It's really because I'm too lazy so the rule is that YOU should make sure your pockets are empty before you put clothes in the hamper.  **The laundress refuses to be responsible for any washed items and their possible destruction as a result.**)  The sorry thing is that I checked M's front pockets, but I didn't check his back pocket.  He always takes his wallet and checkbook out of his pocket the minute he gets home.....  I know, I know I'm making excuses.

The rub of this whole thing is that his credit card is missing, but nothing else out of his wallet.  The last time he used it was at home to place an online order for pizza on Friday night.  He says he didn't have to show it at the pizza place.  The credit card didn't up and disintegrate in the wash.  I didn't even completely dry the clothes before he realized his wallet was missing.  It has to be somewhere, right?

I apologized profusely for the whole thing, but he still left me hanging all Saturday night and Sunday before actually saying that he didn't think I was the one who lost his card.  Gee, thanks!  I wish I'd never washed his pants because I'm beyond the fact that I should have checked his pockets.  LOL

Bella's Bracelet

I've been trying to get the kids to keep it down since I've got a headache.  M's at work playing catch-up and so he's not been here to keep the peace.  I'm not too sick to sew, though, and was able to get this block almost finised today.  I need to get some jump rings for the charms so I can attach them.  I could do it without them, but I've gone to this much trouble so I might as well get some.

The block looks like Cat's but I actually drafted my own version in EQ.  My version has more detail than her pattern and I like the way it came out.  I started out with the shapes (one inside the other) in Word, used Print Screen, and then edited it with the photo software.  I imported it into EQ5 as a .bmp and went at it--not so bad since I had practice with all the "New Moon" letters.  C suggested I position the bracelet differently.  I also wanted the bracelet to dominate the block and for there not to be so much background.  Oh, and there was the fact that I'm trying not to use any patterns associated with that group unless I used them first or came up with the idea to begin with.

The fabrics are very glitzy.  I used the gold because Edward gives her the heart charm in his room and his decor, including bedding, is gold.

Boxing Glove

This block is a little out there and may require some explanation, but I like it and it was fun to make!

Bella breaks her hand punching Jacob after he forcefully kisses her.  I could have done a block of a hand in the cast, but that seemed a little boring....  I got to thinking about the whole incident and how Bella would have been better off punching Jacob if she's had a boxing glove on her hand.  I also thought about Charlie's delayed reaction to the incident (even though he was pulling for Jacob he should have been really mad and given him what-for...) and his instructions to Bella at their graduation dinner.

I used a clipart picture for the boxing gloves.  I made the block using the Upside Applique method.

You're Really Not Going to Do That, Right?!

M tries to help me....really he does.

In my fuss over the Eclipse Quilt last week with the big announcement, I know he noticed the similarities of how things were shaping up.  I've been waiting for him to say something and he did this morning when I asked his opinion on setting fabric, measurements, and scale.

He really didn't have to be that vocal in his oppinion.  I could tell that he was disapproving of where this quilt was headed.

Yeah, I know....

So, I guess it's back to the drawing board which is going to be tough since I don't have the brains for it.

I asked my dad to help by drafting some paper piecing patterns.  He sent a couple to me last night of Victoria and the New Moon tulip.  I think we're going to have to go back to the drawing board.  He doesn't quilt so there are some issues with the patterns and their sewability.  I know that I should just do things myself, but I've previously discussed my issues with drawing.

What a difference a couple of days makes.  I was brimming with confidence until this week.  I've hit a wall.  I have a list of blocks and even some of the patterns picked out, but I can't seem to get with it.

I framed the blocks we've finished in their white frames.  I had planned to finish all of them, but S wanted to read to me last night.  She ended up reading me to sleep.  I have three blocks left and I hope to finish them tonight.

I thought payday was Monday, but it's not!!  I am so mad at myself for not realizing this.  I know I could get some inspiration going if I could buy some new fabric.  LOL

Motivation

I'm all about motivation.

I don't have anyone in my life to keep me motivated.

Is that silly to say?

I know that I should be able to be motivated on my own, but it would be nice to have someone that could help me stay motivated or....

accountable.

How immature is that?  Yes, I'm a 40-year old woman....but apparently I need a nanny.

My Stache Problem

I know that stash is spelled s-t-a-s-h and not s-t-a-c-h-e.  I'm simply trying to be funny.

I'm one sigh away from getting rid of my stash.  It will kill me emotionally to do it.  I've got a fortune in fabric in my basement.  I had a great time....for all of a couple of minutes with each purchase.....shopping for it.  I have an attachment to my fabric even though I don't use it.

Yes, I rarely use it.  It's hard to get to.  I never have the right fabric.  I'm too indecisive in trying to use it in projects.  I'd usually rather go buy something new unless I'm really broke and if I am I'm usually too sad to sew anyway.

It's taking up the basement.

My other option is to put it in storage somewhere else, like a unit, and PAY to store it.

I'm trying to be realistic.  As I was accumulating fabric over the years for one reason or another (I've always said I'm a quilter because I have to be since I love fabric so much), I've been telling myself that one day I'll be able to sit back and sew and sew and sew.  I've realized for a long time that's not likely to happen.

I'm never going to have a dedicated sewing room.  I'm never going to have the time.  I'm being selfish in keeping it.

All Talk and NO Action

I'm all talk with hardly any action.

I'm always sayin' I want to do this and I want to do that.....

I know, I know this subject comes up repeatedly with me.

I've always wanted to have a small garden.  Another year and didn't get it done.

I want to get stuff done around the house, but I always make excuses and wait for help or someone else to do it.

I've always wanted to take a class so I can rent a longarm, but I always spend my money on other things.

I say I want to learn EQ, but I don't spend the time.

I say I want to get out more, but then I chicken out and stay home.

This and that, but nothing and nothing.

Ton

I have a ton of things to write about, but nothing to say.

I have the urge to pick up the phone and talk to someone, but I have no one to call.

I'm not who I want to be because few people like her, but less people like who I am now.

I could sleep for days, but not be rested.

I have way too much time on my hands, but never enough to get it all done.

Physical Effects

Not talking or blogging about my doldrums isn't helping me either.  I thought if I put on my happy face that I would feel better.

I've got that used and abused feeling.

My head isn't the only thing that is feeling well.  I'm back to feeling like someone is sitting on my chest.  I feel like I'm 20 pounds heavier than I am, but I know I haven't gained any weight because everything still fits the same.  I really do feel like I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I feel like working the F-word into every sentence.

My answer to everything that happens is Ask me if I care?

I wonder how long this episode will linger?!

You guys as my only friends get to hear about it unfortunately.

Not the Answer

My hyper-quilt-activity is not the answer.  It only raises more questions......

A Favorite

I Could Be Glad I Waited

We got a late start on the Eclipse Quilt.  I'm still fooling myself that it will be finished in time....

There is benefit to all this and, no, it's not being able to use the craptastic work of others because I'm way better and much more creative/skilled/conceited than that.

The info/pics/inspiration is just pouring out from everywhere for Eclipse.  Like Jasper in his C.W. uni, the tent scene, the Bree Tanner book.

The latest instance of brilliance is to include a Bree Tanner block, hourglass exactly like the book cover because I lack originality and am way too literal, and I have this wonderful crazy idea.

I bought glitter for the sand, but then I got to thinking why can't I use, well, SAND--red, glorious, sand--the kind that kids use in their sand art?

I don't know where this quilt will end up, but I was going to kill suggest strongly that it not be washed--because it's a work of ART (AND IT HAS WAY TO MANY embellishments that would be destroyed in the wash.)

Cool or just too out there?!

Kinda Didn't Realize/Birds and the Bees

My charms and buttons came today.  It figures we liked the charms I ordered first.  I'm so dumb....I didn't trust myself and ordered the other buttons at the last minute.  (I hope I can use them for something else.)

Birds and the Bees:

I'm not sure if we really planned it or not, but the blocks we've made make up the first two rows of the quilt.  I went to the book tonight to arrange their order and sure enough we have blocks through Switzerland plus Graduation.  I'm going to figure out which blocks go in between.  The only block I might add in the second row, shifting the others, is Victoria.  I'm not sold on where she should go.  For one, she reappears early in Eclipse (the reason Edward spirits Bella away to Jacksonville)  However, my dad is helping me with a pattern and it's not done yet...maybe not ever?!

I know for sure that Alice's yellow Porsche needs to be in the quilt.  One thinks of New Moon and the yellow Porsche, but it's also in Eclipse so I think it HAS to be in this quilt!  (Edward pays Alice off with it to kidnap Bella and babysit her while he's away so she stays away from La Push and the wolves.)  So, the big question for me is whether or not I will use the paper pieced pattern sent to me in my other life by Cat or if I will continue with my appliqueing ways to make my own applique pattern from a photo.

Also....should there be quotes or no quotes underneath the "photos" or blocks?

Don't forget the other blog:  http://www.twilightquilterscoven.com/.  I did the write-up for College Choices.  I also added a group attached to me on Facebook.  I'm not sure how to do the link, but you can search for The Twilight Quilters Coven I suppose.

Eclipse Quilt: WIP

Photo is bad, but I'm at work and don't have the tools to edit.  I wish we had more blocks done, but when you make a block three times.....

I think the top row is set.  Wuthering Heights may move up to the second row, postion 1 since it's first mentioned in Chapter 1.

Masochist

Yes, those of you that know me by now know that I couldn't possibly leave the College Choices block as it was was even with all my posturing.

I did try to fix it this morning before starting over.

I know that people think I'm crazy to make a block over and over until I get it right.  I have thoughts about this.  I refuse to leave something the way it is if I know I can do a better job, especially when I'm the idiot that didn't make it right to begin with because I wasn't pay attention or something.  I am not saying that I'm about nuts right now after making this block three times, but that isn't the point.  There may come a time when quilting drives me totally crazy never to return, but right now I'm just crazy at certain times and recover with new projects.

I think I still need to find an acceptance letter, but I'm pooped right now.

I think the Punch a Werewolf in the Face block is next if I'm up for the applique.  If not, I think I'm ready to make Bella's Bracelet.  And, yeah, the heck with not using a pattern designed by someone over there.  I'm hoping my heart and wolf charm come tomorrow.  I'm also expecting my bee buttons to finish the Birds and the Bees block.

I also need to frame seven of the blocks in white that I was holding off on until I saw if I could get more of the fabric which I did.

I Still Got It Wrong

I'm not going to talk too much about this block because it's too aggravating.  This is block #2.  I used different fabric for the white envelope and the gold manila envelope.  The application was done differently, too.

I was happy enough until I scanned it and realized I'd missed stitching a section in the UAS logo.  Yeah, and it was all pieced together already.  I'm such an idiot!!!!!!!  I never learn!!!!!!!!  I ended up embroidering this section.  You can totally tell the difference.  We'll see if I can leave it alone.  I'll probably embroider on top of the machine stitching I didn't miss tomorrow because I won't be able to leave it alone.  (I don't want to machine it and have it show on the back side of the flap.)  Such a shame!

The envelope turned out pretty well.  The flap still flips open.  The gold "envelope" is raw edge appliqued to a Dartmouth college application that I printed on photo fabric.  It wasn't the way I wanted to do it, but I had to surrender.

I may or may not draft an UAS acceptance letter.

I'm just too aggravated.

The only good thing I can say is that by finishing the block, I have all the blocks for the first row and I can start piecing that part of the top.

I need a simple block after this.....

Book Club

A couple of moms and I are starting a book club for our daughters.  (Yes, scary.... me being a founder member of a group.)

Our first book is going to be Beezus and Ramona by Beverly Cleary.

I can't wait to write about our adventures here!

Go Figure

It's never more apparent that my blog is really nothing more than my online journal when I start to whine or rant about something.

I enjoyed my day off yesterday to a point.  I had a hard time not thinking about work, because there was a lot going on there even though we're not that busy.  A certain someone may think we're slow and that not much is going on, but the office doesn't stop functioning when we don't have orders to fill.  Someone still needs to be in the office.  We had two full truck loads in the works.  Orders did ship out yesterday.  Prep work needed to be done for next week.  I know I'm going to be in a panic on Monday and I'm gearing up by thinking about it today.  My other boss didn't know I wasn't working so I heard about that yesterday.  The other one said that he was going to cover the office and then didn't stay for the whole day.

I did end up taking the kids to the pool yesterday.  I had to get them rec cards first.  S needed a swimsuit.  They wanted goggles.  $$$ even shopping at Walmart.  C wanted to go to Pirates Cove with her friends.  I let her.  I pestered her for exact plans and got who she was going with, but we didn't confirm when I was going to pick her up because she wasn't sure.  My crew and I went to the indoor pool.  The kids had a good time, including S's friend.  I treated them to ice cream after.  I was pretty peeved with C because she didn't check in with me once, not answering my texts or call, so after five hours of no communication I was ready to have her paged.  I called M in a panic and he picked her up on his way home.  She is grounded and I've learned another lesson.

S's friend was going to stay the night, but her mom ended up coming to get her at 11:30 because she was too scared to stay.  She's nine so I thought we were past that stage.  (My kids, including S, could never wait to have sleepovers.  She's spent the night at the girl's house numerous times.)  S was very disappointed because it was the first time I've let her have anyone stay.

I also have to report a fail on the UAS/Dartmouth quilt block.  The concept was good enough, but I had a ton of issues.  I'm going to try again so I guess I spent hours on the test block.  I hate working with white fabric.  I always manage to get something on it or doing something to it while ironing.  The tip of my envelope looks dirty.  It may even be the thread I used showing through or simply dirt from my hands.  I tried to get it out, but it still looks dirty.  I also couldn't get the Dartmouth application to look right after pp it--well, duh....  it's next to impossible to position a patterned fabric the right way.  I tried to save the block, but for not.  I'm going to try again.  I haven't decided if I'm going to use white fabric again.

The UAS logo is appliqued.  I'm happy that turned out well!  The envelope flap lifts up to reveal the inside just like a real envelope.  The gold fabric is for another envelope and it looks wonky because I took the outside fabric off.  I think I'm going to applique this part onto the printed Dartmouth application.

No Birds Without the Bees

I'm not above having pictures of my quilting tell the story.  I'm a braggart in that way.  I got busy on the Birds and the Bees block last night.  I will say that I'm getting good at sewing very, very close to the edge neatly and I'm proud of my skill.

I'm waiting on some clay bee buttons that I ordered.  Who know which bees I'll end up using?  There will be bees!

I have another unexpected day off today.  I'm up early because there no sense laying in bed wallowing.  I'll probably sew a little.  The kids also want to to go to the pool.  C made plans as soon as she found out I was going to be home.  She's watched the kids all week so she deserves a day off.  M never officially handed out punishment for the curfew thing so I guess she's off the hook.

The other Twilight Quilters

Be sure to tell 'em Shannon sent you.....or not!

Twilight Quilters

or you can wait for me and friends

OR NOT

since I'm not totally reliable in finishing quilts (just ask Elizabeth).

I am a third of the way there, though.

Questioning Ever Decision

I have way too many options as far as these blocks are concerned and it's creating havoc in my life.

RE:  College and envelope idea

I remembered now why I may not want to do it this way.  I was going to do an envelope for the Wedding Invitation and Edward's note to Jacob.  I don't know if I want to make this block an envelope, too.

Birds and Bees

Maybe I don't want to use charms?  I thought it would be cool to do something different, but maybe I want to just applique?  I also have a cool pp pattern for a bee with organza wings.

Send a Virtual Slap my way, will ya?

Birds and the Bees and Other Nonsense

I lifted this from a Facebook friend today:

No need to explain yourself -- your friends don't need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway.

A block preview:

unstitched, the bird will get an eye, and I have some bee charms on order or I'll look for some more realistic looking buttons.  (Eclipse Quilt, of course!)  I used a McKenna Ryan pattern for the flower and made the bird by tracing a bird from some fabric I had.

Still struggling over the damn College block!!!!!!!!!!!!  I even bought felt in case I went back to the pennant idea.  M wants me to do a fabric envelope with real acceptance letter.  gah  I've created a monster.

The bracelet block that I needed was released for the Twilight BOM that Cat designed.  I'll be damned if I'll use it even if I really, really want to.  I have a wolf and heart charm on order.  I should be able to work something out in EQ because, after all, all the bracelet is is an elliptical shape.  It would be so much easier to just use the stupid pattern.

Court update:  $75 court costs, $150.00 fine (deferred judgment along with fine after one year if she doesn't have any more issues.)  Two hours at courthouse.  Came home to a report in the mail of straight As which was her saving grace.

Blinking

It pains me to say it and I never thought I would say it, but I'm blinking first.

I'm not the only one with the problem.

I'm tired of the fight.  I REALLY AM!  I'm tired of the constant stress.  I just want to have fun.  I want to quilt.  I just want to do my own thing.  I want to be left alone. 
There's room in this world.

I WILL NOT BE CHASED AWAY, though.

One Little Block

How can one little block cause so much trouble?

Since we didn't use UAS and Dartmouth pennants in the Penguins. Lovely block as it had already been taken, we've been trying to figure out a way to depict Bella's college choices in a quilt block.

First we thought we'd do two pennants in one block, but that idea was discarded.

Next the idea was to do have and envelope with the UAS logo with a Dartmouth application.

I'm graphically challenged so I can't put the logos I want on this picture:

The gold between the two white fabrics is supposed to be a manila envelope (needed a color break to separate the two whites.)

This is the UAS logo:

We need help!  Ideas?  We don't really want to print everything on photo fabric.

Off to See the Wizard

C's court date for her curfew violation is today.

I'm hoping, of course, that she'll get off with a warning.  Then, WE can dole out the big punishment....

Never Far Away

My anxiety is never far away.  I'm having rough time of it today.

The toughest thing for me in trying to get better, move on, cope.... is to figure out my triggers.  I'm still struggling with that.

What's strange is that I thought I was doing a lot better.  I've found a project to work on.  I moved forward with plans for my group.  We had a nice weekend.  I shouldn't have much to be anxious about.

It's days like this that I feel the most hopeless.